When I am not angry, I am usually apathetic. What this means is that I am indifferent, neutral, unbiased, or irrelevant to what is going on around me. I see this as a positive thing. By simply not caring much about most things, it allows me to be more honest in what I say and do. Part of this apathy is not being a perfectionist. I have learned that everything about this world and those who live in it are less than ideal. I try not to waste energy getting happy or sad about every little thing that happens. This does not mean that I completely lack emotions of any kind, but that when I am happy, depressed, or angry, it is for a good reason.
This apathy lets me remain open-minded instead of closed-minded. So when I say I am apathetic or that I don’t care about something, it means I just want to be honest with myself. If new evidence suggest that something is more relevant than I used to think it was, I can change my opinion. If I didn’t have the ability to allow change, I would never have become a writer at all.